Escape of Notions

location: office

mood: bored

I've always wanted to stay at home and be a homemaker.  The staying at home is in place, for the moment, but I seem to be bored.  I love doing laundry;  dishes, I do not like to do.  Today, I face cleaning a bathroom 4 grown males use.  I can't for the life of me figure out WHY builders can't put urinals tucked away behind some closet door; it would be SO much cleaner.  Perhaps I'll remodel and include a urinal in the remodel.

In the afternoons, I do my crossword puzzles while waiting on my children to be picked up from school.  I have ALWAYS wanted to pick up my children from school.  My problem is, I have NO social outlet.  I love my husband, and could be around him 24/7, but some sort of socialzation is missing.  I miss my Momma and Sister, the ladies Bible Study, the Ladies Tea at church.  Momma has been dead for almost 6 months and I'm still grieving.  Sissy is in Dallas now and no more Tider Talks.  My husband works from can to can't so I only really see him on Friday afternoons and some over the weekend if he isn't working.

I don't feel free to go to my sister-in-law's house in the afternoons because of the stuff that needs to be done at home preparing for the next day, and she getting off work, going home and getting her stuff done.  The balance isn't there yet.  

Pending my financial situation, later this month I might be looking for a job anyway.  Then the job hunt will have to be something that can be a career, where life is just transitional from home to work, not a mundane boring JOB to go to and come from everyday.  I REALLY need to find some work from home stuff to do.  Thousands of people work from home, why can't I?

 I'm happier than I've every been.  Where's the balance?  Is that part of the curse of sin? Not finding the balance...